8

End of October.

I left work around 8:30pm. I knew I wouldn't be able to get off from work at 6:50 though didn't expect that I had to stay till 8:30...
Pretty much 7 more days left till my vacation. I am looking forward to it now.
I packed some stuff yesterday. Got everything I need already... (didn't I? hmmm have to check again) Really looking forward to see my friends. The feeling isn't "excited" though it's more like "need". I need to see them. I need to see people I like and relax.

9

I love the colour.

10

Wow, only 10 more days to go.
It's been busy at work.
Time flys.
Good thing I guess eh?

12

Conversation at work today with my co-worker/friend...

me "I don't feel good."

A "Maybe you are getting cold."

me "hmmm maybe..."

A "and you are not so excited about your trip yet huh?"

me "no... not yet."

A "well, don't worry you are right on the schedule."

me "what?"

A " last year before your trip in Nov, you were exactly same like you are now. Getting cold and yet not so excited about your vacation."

me "is that right?"

A "yeah, so you'll have fun like you did last year on your vacation."

I had a lunch with my friend who I haven't seen for over a year.
She looked just stunning. We babbled and ate.
Too bad that I couldn't stay longer... had to get back to work.

14

Still not really excited about my trip.
But I feel pretty good after talking to one of my best friends also my Canadian brother.
The things about me, count on possibilities in my head, plan things, get edgy if the plan wouldn't work the way I thought... I think too much.
Live the moment. That's what I need to keep in my mind.

I went to get a massage. Full body scrub and seaweed/mud pack.

Another day off tomorrow. After that I only have two more day offs till my vacation. I need to get hair cut...

15

Finally it's Fall here. Well, I finally feel like it's Fall.
Cold clear air.

I think I should get ready for my trip. It's about 2 weeks away.

Solitude

Morning glory :
A beauty's charm
But a few day's dream.

- Natsume Soseki

I waited and I
Yearned for you
My blind
Stirred at the touch
of the autumn breeze

- princess Nukada

from Zen poems

Dinner

With dad.
We went for a dinner tonight.
Most of my friends can guess where we went.
Yes, sushi of course.



Kayoko! There's new Sushi place (of course 回転) near Kintaro. We went there tonight, it was pretty good.

Blue and White

Today was my lucky day... really...

My body hurts all over.

I had a bike accident. I fell flat on the pavement. I don't really remember what exactly happened. But I was on my bike and I fell to the ground. There's a girl who was trying to pass between me and some other person. It was too narrow and her bike hit my bike. So we both fell. Well, no blood no breaking anything. So that's good.

There's bruises everywhere on my left side. Even my back got a huge bruise.
Actually I was thinking about someone I went to school with when we were kids. We weren't close though few years ago I saw news that she was hit by a taxi and killed. And after her funeral, the taxi driver killed himself.
I was thinking about it the exact moment I fell... sad.

Lately I'm not very lucky, so I thought I should do something good. Small thing though I did.

Life

Sucks.
Something I was looking forward was canceled today.
I am really disappointed. How big the disappointment is... surprised me.
I guess I was really looking forward to it.
Even the excitement of vacation getting closer is faded.

That Smell Again

Fragrant olive...



I think this would be the third time I write about fragrant olive. So I guess it's been more than 3 years since I started to write.
The smell of the flower makes my heart ache. I don't have any bad memory about the flower though... maybe the season. Fall is my favourite season though I feel lonely quite often. Funny eh?

Heaven

After work, I went to get a foot massage.
Heaven...

It's

Less than a month now.
I already got my tickets.
Now I need to plan stuff.
4 weeks still far far away it seems though I should buy insurance and some other stuff now... before I forget.

Every Saturday

Did I already mention that in this month I have every Saturday off?
So today is my day off. Stayed in bed late. Just doing nothing.
Well, I just did yoga. Made me feel little better.
Not in a bad mood though not in a good one either.
Just feel... lonely... hmmm not really. It's not exactly loneliness though something similar.
I went out for dinner with my friends the other night it was great. Went shopping with friend was fun too. So not really I'm lonely.
It's funnly cuz my vacation is in next month. I have still some things to do before that.
I should be excited now.
Oh well... enough bubbling.

Happy Thanksgiving to my friends who's in Canada.
Have a great weekend.
lots of love and hugs.

About ME

I found this at Andrea's.
Don't look if you don't wanna know me. hehe

[last song you listened to]	too sober to sleep - Justin Rutledge
[Shoe size]	7
[Parents still together]	yes
[Siblings]	younger brother
[Pets]	no
FAVORITES
[Color]	Blue, Purple
[Number]	8
[Animal]	Dog, Polar bear, Penguin
[Drinks]	Tea, Coffee
[Soda]	Ginger ale
[Book]	Anne of Green Gables
[Flower]	Morning glory, Hyacinth, Daffodil
DO YOU
[Color your hair?]	not now. but some grey hair... I need it soon.
[Twirl your hair?]	no
[Have tattoos?]	no
[Have Piercings?]	ear, one each
[Cheat on tests/homework?]	high school every Friday Kanji test
[Drink/Smoke?]	drink = sometime, smoke = no
[Like roller coasters?]	yes
[Wish you could live somewhere else?]	hmmmm, Toronto?
[Want more piercings?]	no
[Like cleaning?]	like? I dunno.
[Write in cursive or print?]	in English I do both. Japanese = print
[Own a web cam?]	yes but not using
[Know how to drive?]	yes
[Own a cell phone?]	yes and i've been working for some companys. they suck.
[Ever get off the damn computer?]	not really.
HAVE U EVER
[Been in a fist fight?]	yes with my bro.
[Considered a life of crime?]	no
[Considered being a hooker?]	no
[Lied to someone?]	yes
[Been in love?]	yes
[Made out with JUST a friend?]	er, yes
[Been in lust?]	yes
[Used someone]	no
[Been used?]	I guess
[Been cheated on?]	yes
[Kicked someone in the nuts?]	no, but I should have
[Stolen anything?]	no
[Held a gun]	no
CURRENTS
[Current clothing]	AGO T-shirt, short sweatpants (another word = PJ)
[Current mood]	okay
[Current taste]	instant coffee
[What you currently smell like]	flowery
[Current hair]	need to get a haircut
[Current thing I ought to be doing]	sleep?
[Current cd in stereo]	Justin Rutledge
[Last book you read]	Must love dogs. still reading
[Last movie you saw]	Transporter2
[Last thing you ate]	yogurt with banana
[Last person you talked to on the phone]	a stupid person when I was at work yesterday
[Do drugs?]	no
[Believe there is life on other planets?]	yes
Remember your first love?]	yes
[Still love him/her?]	no way
[Read the newspaper?]	yes
[Have any gay or lesbian friends?]	some bi friends
[Believe in miracles?]	I will believe if that happens. so my answer is no
[Do well in school?]	yes I guess I did
[Wear hats]	sure in the summer and if I'm TO in winter
[Hate yourself?]	no
[Have an obsession?]	no
[Collect anything?]	no
[Have a best friend?]	yes
[Close friends?]	yes
[Like your handwriting?]	no
[Care about looks]	not very much though sure
LOVE LIFE
[First crush]	in kindergarten
[First kiss]	in kindergarten
[Do you believe in love at first sight?]	no
[Do you believe in "the one?"]	I want to believe that but also believe only some can meet "the one"
[Are you a tease?]	yes
[Too shy to make the first move?]	no
ARE U A
[Daydreamer]	yes
[Bitch/Asshole]	sometime
[sarcastic]	not too often
[Angel]	sure
[Devil]	sure
[Shy]	I think I am though maybe not
[Talkative]	sometime

Got Back

From Osaka.
The exam was... it went... actually okay. Well, there's three exams and two of them went well. Last one... I don't think I did even okay. So another exams next year maybe.

Saturday, I met up with Megu for lunch & shopping. My bus was late about half an hour. There was a car accident on high way and the bus had to go longer way avoiding that.

At least nice view.

Anyways, we had a great lunch, it was more like a great cake! I definitely go back there sometime soon! Great cakes! Beautiful cakes! Too bad that I was too tired so didn't take any pics.
Everytime Megu and I meet, we go to Gap store in Umeda.


I don't usually buy that bright green, though I thought that sweater is cute.
We also went to 阪神 depart. But... just looking at those people made us tired. We had to wait in lines going into the store. Empty shelves. So many people.
I had few hours of free time though I was too tired. So I changed my bus and went home early.
It's hot here tonight. Made me more tired. Going to bed soon...